As it is obvious, i come here, rarely enough, and only when i am too perturbed, more cos of the churning inside my mind rather than anybody or anything.
Tomorrow is christmas, and my company has brought to the campus a huge group of children whom the company sponsor's. I happened to notice them on my way back from the gym, after an abridged workout and a relaxing shower. They are so many of them, i had to ask more than one and confirm ..."dont tell me all these kids are orphans". But what i dint want to hear was true. It was not something very depressing, because all of them were excited, and joy was beaming from all of their faces.
The most disturbing fact to me was the joy i saw on there faces. Some very cute innocent faces, with the sense of achievement no less than that of landing on moon reflecting on there faces everytime they managed to bring a lemon held in the spoon to the finish line, or winthe tug of war...
No its not like i am some saddist who doesnt like the joy in their life. It was just a feeling so small....so weak... and so shaking, that i could not stand there any longer and had to decide to leave. What have they got ?? No parents !! few donated, thrown away clothes, and the company of 100 other like themselves. No one to guide, no one to take care, no one to look up to. Yet they carry on their lives daily with a hopes and aspirations so visible on there faces, and from their attitude. If only we were so strong. We have our lives in total control, having reached a status where we can all live with due self respect, support ourselves and others... but we still CRIB...!! we keep complainining. I am sad because i could have got a little more salary, because my dad doesnt think the same way as i do. because my girlfriend always fights with me, because........... i have got everything in this world. How long will this be our story. I manage to make myself more sad. I am loosing bigtime. With all that i have got, i do not deserve to waste my life worrying about all that i have not.
I think its time i did somthing about someone who has nothing. Whose life really needs attention. Nothing much has been done by me ever since the last time i felt so strongly(i:e..since my previous blog...). But hope is alive, that someday i will make my life more meaningful, and gain everything i can from whatever i have gained.
Tomorrow is christmas, and my company has brought to the campus a huge group of children whom the company sponsor's. I happened to notice them on my way back from the gym, after an abridged workout and a relaxing shower. They are so many of them, i had to ask more than one and confirm ..."dont tell me all these kids are orphans". But what i dint want to hear was true. It was not something very depressing, because all of them were excited, and joy was beaming from all of their faces.
The most disturbing fact to me was the joy i saw on there faces. Some very cute innocent faces, with the sense of achievement no less than that of landing on moon reflecting on there faces everytime they managed to bring a lemon held in the spoon to the finish line, or winthe tug of war...
No its not like i am some saddist who doesnt like the joy in their life. It was just a feeling so small....so weak... and so shaking, that i could not stand there any longer and had to decide to leave. What have they got ?? No parents !! few donated, thrown away clothes, and the company of 100 other like themselves. No one to guide, no one to take care, no one to look up to. Yet they carry on their lives daily with a hopes and aspirations so visible on there faces, and from their attitude. If only we were so strong. We have our lives in total control, having reached a status where we can all live with due self respect, support ourselves and others... but we still CRIB...!! we keep complainining. I am sad because i could have got a little more salary, because my dad doesnt think the same way as i do. because my girlfriend always fights with me, because........... i have got everything in this world. How long will this be our story. I manage to make myself more sad. I am loosing bigtime. With all that i have got, i do not deserve to waste my life worrying about all that i have not.
I think its time i did somthing about someone who has nothing. Whose life really needs attention. Nothing much has been done by me ever since the last time i felt so strongly(i:e..since my previous blog...). But hope is alive, that someday i will make my life more meaningful, and gain everything i can from whatever i have gained.
